Ask you to come near and then run away

I CANNOT see, for I am deaf, dumb, and blind.
I ask for your wisdom, as I open my mind.

Lord you know I want to know and do your will;
but I often turn to what I feel.

I seek your wisdom, mercy and grace;
I do not want my life to be a waste.

I cry out for more of you night and day;
In truth it is not always for your use, I
want to have my say and do things my own way.

How I long to rest in your arms, allowing my heart to open up and shine;
knowing you will always be mine.

My mind says you are good, honest, and you have a plan,
my heart says he is like every other man.