True Strength

I stumbled across a Bible verse while I was doing my daily devos the other day.....

"The lion which is mightiest among beasts and does not turn back before any..."

--Proverbs 30:30

This verse really spoke to me and I could tell the Holy Spirit was tugging on my heart as I read it and it was as if a voice was whispering in my ear:

"Zach....you are a LION.

Be Brave. BRAVE. Courageous!

Don't turn back...

Be faithful and step out! RAWR!"

I've been told that I am a strong young man. I know that strength comes from God.

True Strength.

Waiting is tough. Plain and simple, its not easy for me to wait. I have this constant battle within myself. It's because I still have the mentality of "individualism." Being home is not a piece of cake. I have to deal with the fact that, my younger brother lives with his best friend's family. He won't be home for the week, except on weekends. Then my parents having full time jobs. Then the house being empty, with me home to clean it. Having my parents work full time, my brother living elsewhere, my grandma coming back from California, my full time job coming soon, doing chores, going school. Wow, and I find myself waiting. Waiting for when I get to do "me" but it doesn't work like that. The Holy Spirit is my accountability partner. He continues to show me, that this is the Lord's plan. I could easily leave to Eugene for school, but His plan is cut out for me. Its to be home.

Psalm 27:14- Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous.Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.

I need to be patiently waiting for the Lord. I need to be doing things that please Him, not me. This is total conviction. I could patiently wait for a guy, but not wait patiently for the creator of my being? Wow, right to the heart. Lord, please help me to serve you while I'm waiting for you. Help me to think of others, not as burdens but your children as well. Please forgive me for my sins. In Jesus name. Amen.

Tennessee

I think it is prophetic I still have to plan it out in my head and correct it a couple of times before I get the spelling of Tennessee correct. How can I live somewhere when I can not spell the state? Thank God for spell check, or I would be in deep spelling error often. Sometimes I spell it so poorly the suggested words do not even match my spelling, now that is badddd! The Holy Spirit is my checker these days, when I want to cry about moving away from my friends, family and church and the islands I have called home for 7 years now the Holy Spirit lets me cry and reminds me that He will be there with me. When I get a stink attitude about my husband and I want to store resentment and angry towards him for allowing this to happen he reminds me that He has something bigger for us if we can learn to work as partners in ministry. When I want to give up and say I have done all I can do with my adopted daughter and send her to a residential home for children who do the things that she does, the Holy Spirit says, "I am not done with her yet". I love you Holy Spirit and my life would be like a paper written by me with out spell check a big fat "F", yet thanks and glory be to God I have His SPirit to check my minute by minute. Thanks Holy Spirit for coming with me and going before me and living within me.