Friday, July 29, 2011

[[LEGACY: highlight of my year/life changing]]
Now that Legacy is done, this is just the beginning, the start of something new and something good. I am currently in Australia for family vacation and wish that I stayed for the last week of Legacy and the sponsorship banquet. I heard of good things about the banquet and that it was a success! This was a awesome experience and I would've loved to rewind the tape all the way to day 1 of the retreat and do it again. I am beyond blessed to have such amazing leaders and pastors that value and care so much about the interns and I. Now that it's over, I am still helping out with New Hope Manoa with Pastor Sam Kapu until I leave for NHCC. God is working and has been faithful all the way :))

A BIG FAT THANK YOU TO LEGACY [interns/leaders/pastors/sponsors]!!!

My family and I recently went to the Sydney Tower, Australia's tallest tower (around 880 ft) and It was a fun experience! The view was so beautiful and I automatically thought of how big God is. This is only one part of Australia and I said to myself, "WOW, imagine how big the world is". God created the earth and everything in's HUGE!!! God is bigger than life! God deserves more than we think and can ever imagine! One day left of this trip and im back in the 808! ...Thank you Lord for this trip and for providing for my family :))

Monday, July 25, 2011

A new beginning

The time I was in Hawaii change my life forever and I am very grateful for this.
Thank you Jesus, thank you Pastor Creighton for let me part of this amazing internship. thank you Jules for taught me time management, thank you Pastor Rod for spend time loving us. Thank you Leslie for all the good food, Thank you Will for be a good leader, Thank you Neyda for speak with a smiling face. Thank you Christie for sing with a pure heart. Thank you Devin for let me know you. Thank you Josh for your support and the funny moments. Thank you Billy for be our Pastor. Thank you Elaine for be a good friend. Thank you Stephan for be humble. Thank you Zack for be a wise example for me. Thank you KK for be a beautiful innocent girl. Thank you Tia for be worry about me. Thank you Joaquim, my lover to be open to learn. 

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This is my written report for Pastor Wayne Cordeiro
Legacy Internship Program was an amazing journey. I will carry a lot God’s knowledge and a little bit of New Hope’s heart inside of me forever. I was impacted and challenged during the program. Also, I had gleaned many God’s concepts from the DNA of New Hope church.
I was deeply impacted when Pastor Elwin Ahu shared his testimony. It reflects a lot of New Hope’s DNA - he was a judge during weekdays and a Levite, who was in charge of cleaning rest rooms on the weekends – that is servanthood. God was cleaning his heart during this period. Also, he said, “if you forget about music, the Hula, programs, multimedia, and all the ministries, the only thing that will stay is the heart.” I realized that a person’s heart is the most important thing to New Hope and to God. Also, the Legacy Sponsorship Banquet had the theme “Refocus” before this Fireside Chat and as he was sharing I had the inspiration to develop the Banquet theme to “Refocus in the Heart.”
I had gleaned during these eight weeks two important principles: discipline and the importance of being a servant leader. First, I really liked the phrase “honor people’s time” since I was not worried about being on time and I was not good about time management. So, if I want to have the people’s respect I must honor their time. Plus, I need to discipline myself in little things and then I can easily nail big things. The Legacy schedule had taught me about time management and let me practice. As a result, I will become an effective godly leader who accomplishes goal. Second, during the Legacy when the pastor washed interns’ feet God taught through their example the concept of a servant leader. When I saw that Pastor Rod was washing Joaquim’s feet on the retreat I fully understood this. Later, Joaquim washed my feet and it was the new powerful beginning of our marriage.
Before I came to Legacy I didn’t know that my marriage was not going well. I was trying so hard to be a good wife that I forgot about myself and because of this I got deeply hurt. I realized that God had brought me here to heal my marriage and to teach me about my main ministry, which is to be a godly wife to Joaquim. How can I be a godly leader in the church if my house and my marriage is falling apart? So, my marriage is much better nowadays since my husband and I have learned to go to the cross more frequently and our communication is getting better day-by-day. One more significant change was about leadership concepts. I realized that I had done ministry the wrong way so far. I grew up doing church with my parents but I relied on my gifts and my own strength. During Legacy I learned to develop my character through God’s grace. Plus, I have to rely on the Almighty One to build up people instead doing a church myself and by the power of people.
Three things in the program had challenged me the most. First, because of my language barrier, I had to be very attentive in every single moment during the internship to understand what had been taught and what was happening around me. I didn’t want to miss anything. I could see my progress during the classes and assignments since I had learned a lot here. Second, time management is one of my low planks and it has challenged me. Throughout the internship I worked to improve it because I have learned how important it is that I mange my time to accomplish the tasks first. Later, I can spend more time doing fun things. Third, I was the leader of First Impression Fractal to the Banquet and it had challenged me in how I manage people as servant leader and it was really hard. I know that be a servant leader is God’s way to be a godly leader.
I am so blessed to be part of Legacy 2011. Through these eight weeks God has healed my marriage, changelled me, and taught me a lot of His wisdom. I will carry with me the amazing experience of being a part of the heart of the New Hope Church. I have seen and felt its DNA - which is God’s DNA. In conclusion, I loved it.

Journey Begins!

Since saturday (7/23/11) I have been slacking off. I have been missing everyone deeply. But God is forever our strengths! So much things ran through my mind on saturday. Like we need to come as a group and be on the same page. But my mind was clear, when I felt the presence of the Lord in the lead center. He had his hand on our legacy internship. As tenny said, we are interns for life. But God has been faithful to us. When banquet ended, I was truly sadden because Joaquim and Amanda had to leave to Eugene right away. So I hugged them and let them do God's will in Oregon. Now our journey begins and we shall keep each other updated!

Joaquim: you showed me how to let God rebuild your character.
Amanda: you showed me God is able to break barriers of anything.
Will: you showed me that you could worry a little, but over all God is in control!
Neyda: you showed me how to give grace.
Leslie: you showed me passion and to remain teachable always.
Billy: you showed me that God can keep molding you & still be in the process.
Joshua: you showed me that being from Hawaii is okay.
Christie: you showed me that God is still helping you progress with your low plank.
Stephan: you showed me that God is able to move in you, no matter how long you knew of Him.
Elaine: you showed me that you are a mighty confident woman of God.
Keli'a: you showed me God can use "grilling" to have good as an outcome.
Devin: youu showed me gifts are not enough, but your heart is just enough.
Zach: you showed me how to let & trust others to stand by you.

Pastors, friends, family, & Jules thank you oh so much. For helping and investing in us 14 interns. We have been the product of transformed lives by God and His people. I love and miss you all.

Have a blessed day!

Love, Litia Feagai Faitele.

Legacy 2011 is over!

Saturday was the Legacy Sponsorship Banquet and Im so proud because Im part of that because all of the Interns did their best. As a result, we nail the "do together" project!!!

I want to share my written report and leave my contacts below.

"Thank you Jesus" (Pr. Rod Shimabukuro).

Joaquim Emilio de Almeida

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Skype: j.emilio1

Legacy has changed me in many ways such as, my behavior, my personality, my marriage, my life principles, and etc. Also, the opportunity to be part of the New Hope Church for eight weeks and glean from some godly things of New Hope gems. A church which is formed of amazing people. I will remember these eight weeks forever. I have learned so much here that I need divine help to unpack all of that knowledge now.
The Fireside Chats were amazing to me because I had the opportunity to know a little bit deeper about the New Hope DNA and also to meet God's pioneers of the New Hope church. First, the New Hope Core Value # Seven caught my attention since I read for the first time. Also, I could clearly feel and see genuine love and caring relationships during the testimonies. Second, New Hope is a volunteer-driven church for sure since the way that the Levites set up the churches around Honolulu is something beyond my understanding of being a servant of God. Third, the sense of community inside of New Hope is something very powerful since it provides a safe place to everybody.
The Paddling Ministry had amplified my understanding of leadership, which was so selfish and task-oriented before. I got the first seat in the canoe this position is responsible to give pace to the canoe. So, my thought was "I would make these guys paddle really fast". As we started to paddle I was paddling faster than I can. Also, I was paddling faster than my team and I realized that I was responsible to make my team paddle together. As a result, the canoe could go faster if we paddle together. At that moment, God taught me in my heart about godly leadership that focuses on relationship because we have to paddle/walk as a team instead pushing people too hard to accomplish church goals. So, a godly leader must build up the team.
The Legacy program was a life changing to me. I have been married for eleven months and I didn't know that in eleven months I had deeply hurt my wife. I realized this in the retreat because a pastor shared his testimony about his marriage. I realized I wanted her to be me because I thought that I could do things better than her such as, laundry, dishes, clean, etc... but I was completely wrong because I had showed no respect to her at all. However, I came to Legacy to learn how to be a good Leader but God brought me here to teach me first how to be a godly husband. So, I will never forget the Legacy retreat because it had saved my marriage and today my relationship with my wife is softer and more gentle since she can be herself and I stop getting angry with her since I understand how to now respect her as a God's queen.
The Character Class and "to do together project" had challenged me the most and helped me with my low planks. First, I was born in a Christian family and it gave me a good Christian foundation. Moreover, the Character Class challenged all of my Christians ideas and principles, which were not wrong but they are "christianize". So, the challenges during the class help me to expand my foundation and made it stronger on God. As a result, it will help me in my future. Also, the character class showed me low planks and that I should daily ask for God's grace. Second, in the beginning of "to do together project" I took charge and I was all in but I got so frustrated during the planning time. Through this, God had used my frustration to teach how to keep my peace and to listen more than speak.
In conclusion, I'm so proud to be part of a group of interns, which became mature as a group in many ways that I have never seen before. Also, I'm so thankful for all the Legacy leaders and all the pastors that I met during the program. They had impacted my life because they are God's people. So, my behavior, my personality, my marriage, my life principles, and many other things had changed during Legacy. Finally, I learned from a pastor to pray asking for a season to apply all that knowledge to become part of my character as a godly person.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Legacy 2011

Yesterday I was running around at the banquet, fixing this and instructing this and that. Just for a moment I took a deep breath and God opened my eyes to what was really going on. It was not the music, the food, the was all about God and his desire to reveal himself to the hurting world through Legacy. He will and is using the knowledge, the instruction, and the wisdom we have received in these 8 weeks to build a foundation of good, solid leadership. It is up to each of us to continue to build on that foundation. What brick and mortar will we chose when no one else is watching us is all about our character. Chose wisely Team Legacy as God has plans for each of us to reveal him to Brazil, Oregon, Hawaii, California, Colorado and even Tennessee!
Just as the new converts to Christ were percacuted in Jerusalem and fled all over thier known world witnessing and church planting all the way; let us do the same. Victory in Jesus as we disperse and live out the Legacy.
Love and Blessings Leslie


Acts 2:42-47
They were continually devotion themselves to the apostles' teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Everyone kept feeling a sense of awe; and many wonders and signs were taking place through the apostles. And all those who had believed were together and had all things in common; and they began selling their property and possessions and were sharing them with all, as anyone might have need. Day by day continuing with one mind in the temple, and breaking bread from house to house, they were taking their meals together with gladness and sincerity of heart, praising God and having favor with all the people. And the Lord was adding to their number day by day those who were being saved.

In this past season of my life, God has been revealing to me His heart and what His Kingdom looks like. It varied in many different shapes and forms. Sometimes it was words, pictures, images, so on and so forth. It took me eight weeks to realize this but this whole internship was a revelation of His Kingdom to me.

After the banquet, I was driving home really sad and almost depressed that this was all over. Suddenly though, a smile out of no where came on my face. God spoke quietly, as he usually does, and reminded me of these verses in Acts that I so love. He told me that I was a part of that today. As I read this passage again and look back at this internship, those verse describe us almost perfectly. We devoted ourselves to learning and fellowshipping with each other. We were constantly in awe of what the Holy Spirit was doing among us and in us. Though we were extremely different, we were united together as one body in one spirit with one God, and because of that we had everything in common. Daily we would come with one mind into His presence and in his temple, eating together with gladness and sincerity. We praised God together and had favor with all people. And as we were witness to today, God brought more people to be a part of this Legacy movement. I now know what the early church was like because I experienced something similar to it... Legacy.

In two months, we got to do life with each other. We saw each other's low planks. We saw each other's strengths. We saw each other grow and mature. We got frustrated with each other. We forgave each other. We cried together. We laughed together. We went through revelation together. We prayed together. We served together. We shared in pain with each other. We were transparent and weak in front of each other. We sacrificed together. We worshiped together. We lived together... we loved together.

I don't know why God invited me to be a part of this and of your guys's life but I am so thankful that he did. I am humbled by the fact that I got to serve with you all. You all have been examples to me in various areas and your love has truly touched my heart. I have learned so much by just watching the way you guys live and represent Christ.

Billy: You showed me how to love other's exactly how they are
Stephan: You showed me how to always have the joy of the Lord
Will: You showed me how to be a servant-leader
Neyda: You showed me how to show grace ;)
Amanda: You showed me how to have passion for seeking God
Joaquim: You showed me how to love my wife as Christ loves the Church
KK: You showed me how to not let anyone look down on me in my youthfulness
Elaine: You showed me how to be reliable and faithful
Christie: You showed me how to rely on the Holy Spirit and His strength
Leslie: You showed me how to always be teachable
Devin: You showed me how to listen before speaking
Zach: You showed me the importance of meditation
Tia: You showed me the simplicity of life

Thank you to the interns for the role you have played (and are still playing, and will play) in my life. Thank you to everyone who helped plan, direct, coordinate, supported, and volunteered in Legacy; you guys made every revelation, relationship, growth, and maturity possible. And thank you Jesus for inviting us all to be a part of something way bigger than ourselves.

I love and miss you all.

- Joshua Daniel Zenhan KwiHong Luke

Saturday, July 23, 2011

New Journey Awaits...Holding Close To My Heart

"The end of Seasons
Classes, learning and growing
A new journey waits."


As Josh said earlier: We entered the program as 14 interns.....

But we leave as 1 family.

Love ya guys. You all have a special place in my heart. ^_^
Until again,

best thing of my entire life? i think yes.

This internship was incredible. In the beginning, I had no idea what I was signing up for. I had no clue that it would be like this. I had no idea how God would work. This was, no doubt about if, one of the best things I've ever done.
I made lifelong friends in the interns and others.
I saw lives changed, and people come to Christ.
God revealed things to me about myself that I never realized before.
He changed my entire mindset and my heart.
He brought healing.
He showed me that dependence on Him is key, and He showed me what He can do through me when I completely depend on Him.
He taught me so many lessons that will affect my life and ministry.
I am forever changed, and I am so grateful for what Gos has done and continues to do.


Tomorrow, we have the climax of the internship, the "Do Together Project" which involved us interns throwing a sponsorship brunch. It was amazing for me to see everyone operating in their gifts as we were setting up tonight for the event. I never really saw anyone standing around because all of us were constantly helping each other out in any way that we could. I saw that we all knew that in order for this event to go as planned, we all had to sacrifice together and work as a team. During tonight, there was laughter, excitement, stress, frustration, forgiveness, communication, joy, and love. These things are something that really only families go through. We entered this program as 14 interns, but we will leave it as 1 family.

Legacy Banquet Set up

Wow! What a night we had today, it was full of blessings. Tonight we were setting up for our sponsership banquet and it was a success. Everybody working together to accomplish what needed to be done. Guys, you guys are amazing thank you for all your help. A special thanks to Josh too. We are one body in Christ and we are going to make this banquet rock.

Romans 12:4-5 “ Just as our bodies have many parts and each have a special function,5 so it is with Christ’s body. We are many parts of one body, and we all belong to each other."

Friday, July 22, 2011

Warrior of God

"And the LORD sent an angel, who cut off all the mighty warriors and commanders and officers in the camp of the king of Assyria. So he returned with shame of face to his own land. And when he came into the house of his god, some of his own sons struck him down there with the sword."

O)Hezekiah is showing full dependence on God, knowing that even though the army might be HUGE on the other side, we have a greater army because the KING of kings and LORD of lords fights next to us, leading every battle. Even though the king of Assyria screamed and told all of Hezekiah's people that it was nearly impossible to win, Hezekiah still believed and CRIED out to God in prayer, not by himself but with Isaiah the prophet, like that verse says when two or more are gathered God is there. And then an angel came down and powned everyone.

A) I walk this earth a warrior constantly in battle. I know that I am victorious through Jesus' name. These scriptures remind me to never lose faith and hope and dependence on GOd. As big as the enemy may look, our GOD is much bigger, and greater and powerful! How dare I say that the God of the universe is not able to overcome anything, like addiction, or illness, or spiritual battles. In moments of craziness sometimes i forget to come back to the ONE who delivers and conquers, dispite of what the world may tell me, I know that my God is BIGGER.

YOu are so HUGE and POWERFUL, you're words created the heavens and earth, JESUS, your sacrifice cleansed the sins of ALL the people that ever lived and all the people that are still to come. Who am I to even question. I'm sorry for ever doubting your amazing power to overcome my battles. Im sorry for allowing the enemy to speak lies to me. Close my ears to what the world may say and open them to your truth. Clothe me with your armor Lord, I depend on you to give me the strength to endure and stand victorious in your name. The enemy is good at destroying and distracting, Lord I pray that you keep my eyes focused on YOU, never looking to my right or my left. Lord speak to me daily, through your word, visions, signs, and other people. Open my heart and mind to you so that i can be open and willing to draw near.

Legacy by Nichole Nordeman

I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much

I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world

I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy

I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy

Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...

This is the song that Me and Christie chose to do for tomorrow's banquet. We really felt that this was the perfect fight, that best exemplifies the Legacy program. Although we had the great opportunity of being in this program, the heart behind it was not for us to be exulted but for us to be good servants to God. This song talks about how its not about the fame and glory, but about the heart behind it all.

Be a faithful servent

 His lord said unto him, Well done, thou good and faithful servant: thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.
Matthew 25:21
 This is one of the last lessons that I take from this internship is not just to be faithful but to be a faithful servant of the Lord. As Pastor Kyle said yesterday I also need to change my vision to see what is behind the dirty things. Thank you Pastor Kyle! :)
Love you LEGACY! 

Be a faithful servent

 His lord said unto him, Well done, thou good and faithful servant: thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.
Matthew 25:21
 This is one of the last lessons that I take from this internship is not just to be faithful but to be a faithful servant of the Lord. As Pastor Kyle said yesterday I also need to change my vision to see what is behind the dirty things. Thank you Pastor Kyle! :)
Love you LEGACY! 

Lessons that I learned #2

The Fireside Chats were amazing to me because I had the opportunity to know a little bit deeper about the New Hope DNA and also to meet God's pioneers of the New Hope church. First, the New Hope Core Value # Seven caught my attention since I read for the first time. Also, I could clearly feel and see genuine love and caring relationships during the testimonies. Second, New Hope is a volunteer-driven church for sure since the way that the Levites set up the churches around Honolulu is something beyond my understanding of being a servant of God. Third, the sense of community inside of New Hope is something very powerful since it provides a safe place to everybody.

Tonight was the last Fireside Chat for 2011 Legacy. Thank you so much Uncle Kyle to wrap up with a great lesson "keep a broken heart but not a broken mentality".


"The seeds will sprout forth
Coloring from green to brown
A new harvest waits."

A season is ending...and a new adventure awaits me. It's time.

Our last Fireside Chat

Today was our last fireside chat with Pastor Kyle. It was such a humbling experience to be able to sit with a Pastor that truley has a servant heart. Somthing that Pastor Kyle said was that many times God will place us in situtions or struggle were we are going to cry and get on out knees. But those moments are the moments were God is building our character. Do not ignore thoses moments becauses thats were God is the closes to you and he want to teach us somthing.

The End is Near

I can not believe that we are so close to the end of the program. There has been so much poured onto us! We have built long lasting friendships, that I will miss dearly. I am so proud to be part of a group of young men and women that love God and that seek to be nothing more than just His servants. I have learned so much from every intern and I want to thank them for sharing this time with me. Legacy has blown away all my expectations! I can not wait to see where God will be taking us in this new season of “application.” As far away as we may be we will always be Legacy!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Fruit Training

S) "Of his own will he brought us forth by the word of truth, that we should be a kind offirstfruits of his creatures." James 1:18

O) When i think of exercise i think dripping sweat and major pain, but then i think of the result of exercise which is strength and beastness. Sometimes the will of God can be hard or sore in some ways but its important to look at the outcome or the fruit of it. Through the Word of God, he brings up the real me (my true colors), exposing my sin through His word he breaks me down, and builds me up again. In the exercise of His will, he stretches me and tears me apart to make room for more muscle, during the process it might be junk but i know and have faith that in the end, his will can be fulfilled if i stay obedient to...his will, if not i can't bear the fruit that I am capable of bearing

A) Although there may be seasons in my life that are hard, its important for me to stay obedient to God's will, because apart from it, nothing BUT bad fruit will be the outcome. I always pray for God to use me and to make me the woman of God he created me to be, but how can he use me if I cant even stay obedient during the times that he calls me to do something. THe words of his truth, ultimately through scripture, is there to reveal how broken i am, but also to reveal His grace and for me to do something about how junk and broken i am, and suck up the sweat and tears, lay it at the cross, and become the WOman of God he has called me to be.

Friendships that will last

I can’t believe that the Legacy program is almost over. Guys, I had such an awesome time with all of you. You all will be in my heart forever. Eachone of us has a special calling from God and lets fulfill it. I will miss all of you. Let’s leave a LEGACY for Jesus so that this world could become a better place. I love eachone of you. Let’s make our friendship last forever and someday reunite.

Fruit of What I Have Learned

As part of Nueva Esperanza (New Hope Spanish Ministry) I lead the small groups. We have a great small group in Waikiki filled with great hispanic people that are eager to know the Lord on a deeper level. Recently we had a new guy from Mexico that has been attending for the last month. He has consistently been attending but had not accepted the Lord as his savior. Instead of my usual approach of quickly telling him to say the “sinners prayer”, I put into practice what I have been learning. I started to love him for who he is, not pushing anything on him, but just sharing the gospel with my life. After a month of just loving on him and letting the Holy Spirit do His job, he finally accepted the Lord. It was over a simple conversation about forgiveness that he finally opened up and admitted that he needed the Lord. As I led him through the sinners prayer I thanked God for such a great opportunity. Legacy has taught me so much, now it is a season of applying all that I have learned, and this experience was a fruit of that.

slow to anger

Last week, I knew this week was going to be nuts. With the video for the banquet hanging overhead, along with everything else coming together and needing to get finished by Saturday, I was anxious about this week.

This mornings devotional really helped me put my frustrations and stress in perspective.

Proverbs 19:11
Good sense makes one slow to anger,

I've recently been seeing petty frustration wedging itself into relationships.
When I get ticked off, I usually end up making a comment that does nothing towards resolution and a more towards harming my relationships. a byproduct of me getting angry is saying and doing things in the heat of the moment that are impatient, defensive and hurtful.

When I'm angry, I don't see things clearly. I think I see what the resolution should be like, and the only thing I'm really resolved to doing is trying to push the situation in that direction - and it doesn't turn out well.

If I am able to see the root causes of things - If I am able to have "good sense" about situations in which myself and others are upset, anger begins to dissolve because of that understanding. If I am able to look into my heart genuinely, and see what it is in me that's causing me to feel that way or get upset at that person and their action - it immediately begins to release that anger, and instead of harming the relationship - anger can be used to see where healing needs to take place.

Lord would you give me understanding, would you let me see the hurt and unresolved things in my own heart that are overflowing into hurtful words and actions. Would you lessen my desire to be right, and increase my hunger to see your truth in situations.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Lessons that I learned #1

Paddling ministry experience blessed my life so much. I got the first seat in the canoe and the person who seat in this position is responsible to give the rythim to the canoe. I was so happy because I got this seat. Also, I thought I would make this guys paddle really fast. Anyway, we started to paddle and I  was paddling fast than I can but I was paddling faster than my team and I realized that I was responsible to make my team paddles together and then we can go faster together. As a result, God taught me in that moment about godly leadership instead push hard people to accomplish goals I must care about my team and be together.

i love you guys. :)

Yesterday, the interns chose to spend our Sabbath together. First, we met up at Starbucks to do devos together. Then we went to the Dole Plantation, then the HE>i store, then Waimea Beach, then Giovanni's Shrimp Truck, and on to Fireside Chat. It was such a great day!
I am amazed that God handpicked each of us to be here. He had a reason for bringing this specific group together at this time. And I am so blessed that He gave us the capacity to love each other. I think I can speak for all of us when I say that we all deeply love each other, and that does not always happen in life and ministry. We don't always get along with the people we work with. In those cases, we need to love them anyway and learn to work with them, and God definitely could have given us that challenge. But instead, He gave us a group that enjoys each other's company. It is such a blessing to have these amazing, lifelong friends that I have been able to share life with during the past two months.

From me to you (in alphabetical order haha):

Amanda: I have always wanted to get to know you, and I am so glad that we had this opportunity to become friends! I am super happy that we have gotten close and have had so many great times together. :)
Billy: I'm amazed at all that you do, and how well you do it. You are definitely gifted, and God is using you in amazing ways. It is so cool to see you continually ministering to the people around you. :)
Devin: It has been really cool being in the same group as you and seeing you grow. God has done some amazing things in you! And He will continue to do amazing things in and through you! :)
Elaine: I loved all the time we were able to spend together! I am so grateful for all of the laughter and the great life and God conversations we had. :)
Joaquim: It is so awesome to see how God has been working in your life the past two months! Your heart for serving God and His people is amazing. :)
Josh: I love your love for the Bible and for God. It's so cool to see how excited you get when God teaches you new things. :)
Keli'a: Girl, it is SO incredible to seeing you grow in Christ. Wow! God has done amazing things through you, and I loved getting to know you and am SO happy you are coming to NHCC!!!!!! :)
Leslie: I love how you most definitely have the gift of hospitality. :) You are such a blessing, always cooking for us and planning get-togethers. :)
Neyda: I loved how it seemed like we were always partnered in our ministry skills classes, and we got to talk and work together. You are such a joy! :D And girl, you can saanng!!! Keep using that amazing voice God gave you for His glory!! :)
Stephan: It has been super cool to see God working in you. Seeing you lead worship and preach, and all of the artistic stuff for Fuse and the banquet; it's so awesome to watch you stepping out and using your gifts for God. :)
Tia: You are such an amazing encourager. It is such a blessing. And you always bring so much to a group. :) I loved all the time we spent together! :)
Will: You are real and consistent. My first impression of you is exactly what I've seen everyday since then, and that is such a great quality; to not be inconsistent or fake. :)
Zach: You are such a blessing! I love your smile and the joy of the Lord that you have in you. :)

I love ALL of you! I am so glad to go back to school with those of you who are going to NHCC, and I will miss those of you who are not. I am so glad that God brought you all into my life. You are all amazing men and women of God! God is going to use each and every one of us in amazing ways! And I am so excited. :)

Within yourself.

Within myself is my organs. The main one is my heart. I have great intentions, but how to express it is difficult. I want my cousins to see Christ and follow Him. I took them to New Hope Honolulu, showed them everything. But it seemed to not have any effect on them. But I would tend to get frustrated because they would joke around so much. I would let my flesh have space, but conviction took over. God shows me, I have a good heart but I need Him to be Him: God Almighty. So I was just convicted and I let Him take over. It is hard because I want them to follow, but is that the intentions of their own hearts? But I need to let Him be God and I be the servant. I need to remind myself consistently.

A heart for Christ

It seems like every week I realize how much more I need God. I cannot do the things He has called me to do without Him. I realize how much I depend on Him for everything I do. How can I seek to fulfill my calling if I am not striving towards my God?

"I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus"
-Philippians 3:14

Hebrews 11

Scripture: Hebrews 11:

6 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

I need to build my faith. Instead of just recognizing that things are happening around me, to realize that and believe in faith that it is God's will. I cannot please God without faith. I need Him to be the center of my life, and grow deeper and deeper and deeper in Him. I can see here that God also rewards those who seek Him, specifically those who seek Him earnestly. I need an earnest faith, not just understanding.


The internship is almost over....

This is the last week.

But I don't want to think of the sadness, dramatic interludes, and bittersweet endings.

Lasting time spent with friends

Lasting friendships till the end

Lasting skills I have learned

Lasting lives I have turned

A lasting path I have set

Lasting leaders I met

All for the glory of God I say

Will this end?

May it never, may it never, may it never


For this is for God's glory you see

And things of His Kingdom

Always LAST

Never in the past



Everlasting till time



But God's work is not.

But there's still alot

to be done.

Through His Son,


Who died for you and me.

Gotta be ready, willing,


With His life trading

For our everlasting life.

So don't think things in God's Kingdom

Is vain.

A purpose

A plan

For everything

That happens in life



To the end,

So it's not goodbye, bittersweet Ciao, or even dramatic end


Until again.


Last week Tuesday, I was asked at the youth leaders meeting if God was pressing anything on my heart that I would like to speak on this past Sunday. I remember studying about Hebrews 12 and it really being in my head all week so I agreed.

I prepped my message from Tuesday all the way till Saturday when I met with one of the youth leaders Keane to go over my message and make sure I was ready for it. After meeting with him, I was pretty much set and was just about to finish it up. As I am just about to put the final touches on it, God speaks to me and says that the message that I am working on is not what I am to speak on. He then goes on to reveal to me what I am to speak about, which was about how he has been weakening me so that I may depend on Him more for strength.

So here I am, at 10 at night, I am trying to listen to God as He is telling me I have to start afresh, frustrated and slightly upset that He's telling me this. I was crying out to Him and asking Him why did He do this to me and yet in the midst of this I hear the verse that God told me to teach on ministering to me. It said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness. Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong."

At last, at 2 in the morning, God reveals to me the whole content of the message and I am able to go to sleep. Just before I got up to preach in the morning, I asked God to use my message even though it wasn't what I wanted it to look like. So I preached, and I thought it went alright; however, I was approached by one of the small group leaders afterwards who said I did amazing. She said that through the message I was really able to connect with some of the girls in her group and one of them actually started crying because of a revelation she received through what I said.

It is amazing to see what God did through me when I sacrificed what I wanted to do and to speak on and surrendered it to Him. Many times throughout the hours of 10pm and 2am I wanted to revert back to what I was originally going to speak on, but I ultimately decided to trust in Him, and through it someone's life was transformed. Thank you Jesus for showing your strength even in my weakness.

My thoughts

 I was born in a christian family in Brazil and my thoughts was that I knew about leadership and ministry but as I arrived in Hawaii for the Legacy I realized that I have to learn a lot to become a godly leader.
All starts in my heart… is my heart in the Lord?
The New Hope Church teaches me that is all about the heart of  the people and not about the buildings, the programs or anything else. The most important thing is focusing in the heart of the people, which means everybody
This is what I have done… REFOCUS in the HEART.
Also, I have learned that my main ministry is my marriage and I have to focus in my husband’s heart. I didn’t know that I can do ministry at home. How can I be a godly leader without focus at my home?
Psalm 128
A song of ascents.
 1 Blessed are all who fear the LORD, 
   who walk in obedience to him. 
2 You will eat the fruit of your labor; 
   blessings and prosperity will be yours. 
3 Your wife will be like a fruitful vine 
   within your house; 
your children will be like olive shoots 
   around your table. 
4 Yes, this will be the blessing 
   for the man who fears the LORD.

Monday, July 18, 2011

New Hope Core Value 7

The Core Value 7 caught my eyes since the first time that I read it. "We believe that genuine love and caring relationships are key to the life of every endeavor". I asked myself. "Does it is real here or it is just a good sentence to be in the Core Values?"

I am astonished because I could see and feel caring relationships and genuine love to my wife and I since we arrived here. Also, the sense of community inside of New Hope Church is something that I will care inside of my heart forever and I want to apply it into my life. I am not a relational person at all but I would like to say thank you New Hope Church to teach me how it is important.

In conclusion, the core value 7 is real inside of New Hope and it is a good sentence to be in my life as one of my personal core values.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

pressing on.

Saturday, for our final coorporate workout, we hiked Koko Head. It was intense. At the bottom, it looked pretty impressive, but I thought I could do it. The farther along I went, the harder it got. I kept going and going and it kept getting harder and harder and I was getting more and more tired. I literally thought a couple times that maybe I couldn't make it. But I pressed on toward the goal of reaching the top. And I made it! It was quite an accomplishment, and the view at the top was INCREDIBLE. I would say it was almost worth the effort of getting up there. But not quite. ;)
Along with quoting Philippians 4:13 and refusing to give up, one thing that helped me succeed was my fellow interns. We could encourage each other and help each other along the way. And when we made the trek back down, it wasn't even a big deal because we were just talking and enjoying ourselves. Before we knew it, we had reached the bottom!
Things in life that are set before us sometimes seem daunting and impossible. When we're in the middle of overwhelming circumstances, we may feel like giving up. But we need to keep in mind the prize of "the upward call of Christ." Also, God has placed people in our lives, and when we partner to further the kingdom instead of going solo, the results are amazing!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Real Life, Real People, Real God

Today at Fuse East, I got to witness eight people come into contact with the alive and living God. I saw people who never believed in God till tonight come into contact with the Holy Spirit touching them in a way that they never experienced before. Tonight, I saw sick people find the Great Physician. Tonight, I saw the lost become found and the blind able to see. Tonight, I rejoiced with the angels in heaven as eight people were restored into the Kingdom of God and embarked themselves in a life-long relationship with Christ. This is real life as real people experience a very very real God.

Thank you, Father, for inviting me to be a witness to such an awesome event in your kingdom. I dont care where you call me or what you ask me to do as long as I get to see this happen for the rest of my life

Friday, July 15, 2011


Man, it saddens me and is discouraging to see how quickly I resort to trying to cover my low planks. I do, and having so much practice over the years, I can do it pretty well. I want to stop. But I can't go into my mind and remove my proneness to hide my weaknesses, my default mode that constantly magnetizes towards trying to make everything seem ok. The Body of Christ is so stalled when I do that. What a horrible mistake to make.

I'm not ok. I am still really broken, I have lived a selfish, wrong-direction, sinful life until God began revealing Himself, His greatness and His unconditional, and immeasurable grace unto me. And since then (about 2 years ago) I have been spending a lot of time around healed people. And I am now realizing that during much of that time, I have tried to make my restoration towards holiness happen on my own. I saw it in others, and I tried to get it myself (Christian books, disciplines, practices..etc) I tried to make it happen without submitting to God doing it - however he wants - because it is for His glory, not mine.

God can go into my mind and cause a shift. ""Therefore thus says the Lord God: Now I will restore the fortunes of Jacob and have mercy on the whole house of Israel, and I will be jealous for my holy name. They shall forget their shame and all the treachery they have practiced against me, when they dwell securely in their land with none to make them afraid," Ezekiel 39:25-26.

It is still so hard to revisit those treacherous places. But He will make me forget them or see them anew.

I hear the Lord say today, "Son, if you only knew how big my Grace really is. Your past and your idolatry, and your disobedience is more wrong than you'll ever know. But please stop trying to equalize it - you will never be able to come close - it's impossible. Impossible.
Please look at the Cross. The perfect redemption that you don't even know you're looking for is there."

Pastor Justin Smith's Interns.

I have seen God move through out Legacy and it saddens me its almost done. But I have seen God reveal Himself to me, through my fellow interns (Christie S. & Devin H.) and my covering Pastor (P.Justin Smith). We were put together for a purpose. Even coming near the finish line, I have no clue why the Lord of creation put us together. But I have gleaned so much from these three people. We have failed as a team, but learned to take care of each other. I learned that with our little group it was safe to show our weaknesses. Christie Sinclair; you have grown so much in two months. I know you will go home, but really miss Hawaii! I know you will do fine because the God you serve is in control. Also a scripture that I got for you: 2 Tim. 1:7. Devin Horn; my bradda! you have grown tremendously! I have seen you let God discipline you, even when it hurts! (Heb.12:11). You be okay; God is revealing new"muscles" you never knew existed til now. Pastor Justin Smith; ahhh pretty cool Pastor and friend! thank you for just being with us and obeying God's command to shepherd us three. Especially Legacy, the Pastors, Pastor Wayne C. and Jules! But thank you to our Abba Father Yahweh! for just providing great leaders and willing hearts! I love you all !


No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. 
Hebrews 12:11

We'd talked about DISCIPLINE at fireside chat with Pastor Wayne Cordeiro yesterday.
As we discipline ourselves on little things. As a result, we can easily be disciplined with big things.
God has disciplined me to become a Godly Leader and I am so thankful because He loves me so much and that is why He has taught me so much about DISCIPLINE.

I would like to say thank you to Pastor Rod who has taught my husband and I to have a disciplined life, which comprises close relationship with God and between us.

Firesite Chat with Pastor Wayne and Anna

Our firesite chat with Pastor Wayne was a sucess, it was such a humbling experience. It was full of so much wisdom and experience that he and his wife Anna have gone through at the start of their ministry. One of the many things that impacted me from the chat is somthing that Pastor Wayne said he. He said that whereever you are serving in ministry always think that these place is where you will die. So that you may do ministry more eventually. Also to always have a teachable heart, so that God may be able to move you around in anyway that is he will for your life. It was really a honor to be able to sit with Pastor Wayne and Anna, thank you.


7-14-11 I submit as an act of LOVE.
Romans 9:20-21

S 20 But who are you, a human being, to talk back to God? “Shall what is formed say to the one who formed it, ‘Why did you make me like this?’”[a] 21 Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for special purposes and some for common use?
S Should men talk back to God? Should man even have the right to ask God whom formed them, why did you make me like this? Does God (the potter) have the right to do what ever it wants to with men,(the clay). Does God not have the right to use the vessels (men) the way he wants to, because he made them he can make certain men (vessels) to be used for special purposes and then other vessels (men) for common use? Whatever God creates he has complete authority over its use.
A I need to wield to God and quit asking those questions such as why me? I need to bite my tongue every time I try and tell God how I want to be used and how I think he should do things in my life and the life of others. I am an idiot if I think I can out smart God who created all of this earth, man, beast, the heavens, and the oceans how to do things. I need to learn to cultivate the art of submitting to God as a gift to him and myself.
P Lord how dare I speak to you the way I have at times, trying to give you direction and insight into my mind and heart. Forgive me Lord and direct my every thought and step for your glory and honor. I willingly give you my submission, respect and submission as a gift to the one I love. You are my God and I am your child as I sing out daily you are my God and I am so glad that you would choose to use me just the way that I am, a common vessel meant for your use.

Last week of LEGACY!

So I have a few days left in Legacy and this journey has been amazing! The Lord has been working in many many ways and I have been blessed. In Legacy, the one BIG thing that God has revealed to me was my blind spots and low planks! He showed me that pride, fear, and receiving criticism was my weaknesses that needed to be strengthened and throughout this program, he had tested my faith. The best part was that God gave me these phenomenal leaders to glean off of and to really grasp all the experiences and wisdom that they have poured on to me. Seizing all these opportunities in this program has really made an impact in my life and this has helped me so much to develope my character and shaping me into the women God intended me to be! I AM DEFINITELY GOING TO MISS LEGACY/INTERNS/LEADERS [PASTORS]!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

FUSE West- I love ya guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eight weeks.
Serving at not just a church.

Wednesday nights
Helping with setup.

Lifting up chairs, tables, and tablecloths;
Installing lights, raising curtains, and
Mopping the floors.

Fun times.
Good times.
Lots of laughs and smiles.

FUSE West. Young Adults Ministry.
Family. Ohana. Servants. Leaders. Volunteers.

My new family.
It was a blessing meeting you guys.
I got to know each of you.

I say this with tears.
Tears of
Tears of
Tears of

It's almost time..... say goodbye.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Transformed Lives

During staff meeting on Tuesday, Pastor Wayne gave a great message about seeking for Transformed Lives. If we are not bringing about transformed lives, or being instruments of bringing people to Christ, then what we are doing is worthless. We are just another thing to do. However, since we are a church with a goal, we should strive to bring transformation in the hearts of others. Everyone can can do this in ministry, and we should all be striving for it.

Working on the Heart

God has really been working on my heart. I'm still trying to figure out how to be in constant devotion, and to yearn and strive for God with every fiber of my being in every situation. It's not about doing things, it's about being in relationship and yearning for more. It's hard sometimes not to fix the tangible/circumstantial things and call that enough, but I know God wants my heart, and the whole thing at that.

righteousness is good, but it can hurt getting there.

Proverbs 12: 1-2
Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge,
but he who hates reproof is stupid.
A good man obtains favor from the Lord,
but a man of evil devices he condemns.

As I was reading proverbs last night, the idea of righteousness and integrity kept coming up. Handfuls of instances in my life began surfacing that I had previously looked at as 'minor and insignificant' using my roommates condiments/socks/towels without asking them, things like that...

It was really convicting, feeling challenged on something I previously thought 'okay.' having furthered and my boundaries stretched towards zero-compromise. I found myself uncomfortable and getting defensive about the convictions and accusations that I was feeling.
Then I read "Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge, but he who hates reproof is stupid" and the fear and defensiveness started to become excitement. Knowing that the reproof of selfishness and non-integrous living is a draw into holiness - I was encouraged and motivated. Staying here and staying mindful is the trick

The power of the Blood of Jesus Christ.

S) "How much more will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal spirit offered HImself without blemish to God, Cleanse your conscience from dead works to serve the living God?" Hebrews 9:14

O) In the OT before Jesus' death, in order for the people to be forgiven of their sins they had to take a clean and pure lamb and sacrifice it. Jesus christ's sacrifice was so powerful, that it tore the veil of the holy of holies and allowed all people to enter into the presence of God. If killing an animal for the forgiveness of sins was very important and powerful in the OT. How much more CRAZY amazing is it for GOD of the universe to come to earth, live a PERFECT life and die as an offering for the sins of the WORLDt....Thats awesome.

A) This scripture really gave me a good realization how powerful and great Jesus' death was. He wasn't just a normal person that happened to offer himself as a living sacrifice...HE WAS GOD!This scripture reminds me to not take lightly the Death and resurrection of our LORD Jesus Christ and the POWER of His blood.
Recently, I was worried about our sponsership banquet. I’m in charge of decor and have been trying to get conneted with people from New Hope that would be able to help. Pastor Richard told me about this young man that helps New Hope with all there decor. I got in contact with him through e-mail amd text, but somthing in my heart told me to set up a meeting in person with him. I asked him if he was available and he say yes. I meet with him in Monday morning and he was so helpful he said he would help me with anything I needed. Not only that he gave me encouraging words, that I believe came from the Lord. He shared with me how many times he  would worry about things and  one day a sister from church told him that worry is a sin. God doesn’t want us to be worried we need to do everything with our hearts humble to Him. Wow, the Lord opened my eyes and totally revealed himself to me  through these words of this young man.

Give Praise to the Lord at all Times!!

I have the great opportunity to lead a small group in waikiki for the spanish ministry at New Hope. We get toghether every Tuesday night for a time of fellowship and hearing from the word of God. Our topic for tonight was “True Worship.” We read from Psalms 34:1 "I will bless the LORD at all times;His praise shall continually be in my mouth.” Despite of David’s circumstance he praised the Lord at all times. In the small group there are different types of people from different backgrounds and struggles; all first language spanish speakers. This study really hit home to most of the people tonight. Many have been going through rough seasons and have even blamed the Lord at times. We all came to the conclusion that despite of what happens in our lives God is worthy of His praise. The Lord led me to share from Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to Hispurpose.” As I prayed over the people I can see God working in all of our hearts! God is truly worthy of His praise, and I will continue praising His name and sharing His word!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Honest Mistakes

I had felt so guilty of somethings that I did not do right during the Legacy Program.

I learned this morning about Honest Mistakes, which means I did mistakes because of my ignorance and my desire to do better. Anyway, it was a mistake that I don't want to do again because I have learned how to do right now.

Thank you LEGACY to allow me be part of the program also the Legacy leaders and interns who have supported and helped me to grow as a Christian who has the desire to be a godly person.

Dying Daily!!!

Pastor Wayne came to today's (July 12, 2011) staff meeting. He said, "We must die to our flesh daily." Now dying to my flesh is never easy. Even for the strongest Christians. Romans 8:5 Those who are dominated by the sinful nature think about sinful things, but those who are controlled by the Holy Spirit think about things that please the Spirit.
Wow, I now know how crucial and essential it is to "die daily." It is difficult to be on my guard all the time. But with the Holy Spirit, I am to be on my guard and do it. But I must reevaluate myself constantly. It was a great time to reflect and see if God and I are one today. I am learning so much through this internship. I am growing and building "new muscle" everywhere, physically and mentally. This internship is coming to an end, and it is okay because God has placed us specifically where he needs us. Thank you Lord for your small reminders and especially your grace everyday and every minute we have on earth! Amen.

Micah 7:8
Do not gloat over me, my enemy! 
Though I have fallen, I will rise. 
Though I sit in darkness, 
the LORD will be my light. 

O: Hallelujah!
Again, even if I set in the darkness He will be my light. 

A: I can not give up, I can not stop to have faith, I can not stop to dream because when I fail I will ask Him to show me His light and HE WILL.

P: Dear Lord my savior, I love you, thank you for be my light even when I fail. Please teach me how to walk in your light and to not have thoughts that are not from you, Be a light in my marriage.
In Jesus name, 


Today some of us were talking about the end-of-the-program paper we have to write and how part of it is evaluating our covering pastor. And I thought, oh that'll be no big deal, Pastor Justin is awesome. Then I thought, oh wait, all of the pastors are awesome. And then I thought, oh my goodness, all of the leaders in Legacy are awesome! I am SO blessed by each and every one of these amazing leaders. How incredible is it that they are taking the time out of their lives to invest in us? Each one has impacted my life, and my life is forever changed because they responded to God's call to make Legacy happen What a blessing the last six weeks have been! Thank you Pastor Justin, Pastor Rod, Pastor TJ, Pastor Brandon, Pastor Rick, Pastor Sam, Pastor Richard and Auntie Mary, Pastor Wayne, Pastor Creighton, JULES, everyone who did the fireside chats, the teachers, Aaron Nunez, Tate, and EVERYONE ELSE who has poured into our lives! Because of you allowing God to use you to minister to us, my life will never be the same!

God cares about your HEART!

"He has shown you, O mortal, what is good.
And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God."
Micah 6:8

The Lord does care about what I do, what I accomplished and so on, but he cares more about my heart and where it stands! This verse has quickly reminded me that God wants me to simply act justly and to love mercy! Being respectful and having humility is an important tool that I've learned and put into practice throughout this internship. As this internship comes to an end, I'm very excited to throw out and live what I have received from this program and all the revelations i've been having about my character has really helped shaped my life into something greater than I thought! The Lord is good and I believe that the best is yet to come!

Heal my heart and make it clean! I want to live for you and you only. Lead me to do things that will glorify you and live a life that will transform in a way that will benefit my relationship with you!